Living in harmony with my numbers

 

Living in harmony with my numbers

Starting with the 9

Before I begin my very brief relationship with my cycle 1. I really need to start from the beginning.  I know that doesn't make any sense! Starting from the 9? Isn't the 1 the beginning? Well, in all honesty to truly understand the cycle of a 1 you really have to have endured cycle 9.  For those of you who do not know much about numerology let me give you a brief explanation. (Sorry numerologist)

Numerology 

I will begin by saying  that our birthdate is no accident.  Even when it has been carefully planned. You chose long ago to come on that day.  To work, develop, learn and teach with that energy. I believe that Numerology is one of the predictive sciences.  Each number carries a vibration and when you are born the sequence of these numbers influence who you are and how you behave in certain circumstances.  Those of you who have had a numerology reading can attest to the accuracy.  It is road map, a blue print of your life. Not learning this blue print is like stumbling in a dark room.  You will get around but you bump into many obstacles before you reach your destination. 

Now then, where was I? Oh yes, the beginning with my 9 year cycle.  I will share that for me that cycle was excruciating,  The energy of a 9 begins towards the end of your 8 cycle and the damn thing lasts about 21 months (almost 2 years people, think about this for a moment) and it ends on our about September 23. Ouch!  The energy around everything you do begins to slow down.  Which in the beginning you are all grateful because of the craziness of the year cycle 8.  But oh boy, by the time June comes along you realized that you have lost friends, things, you cleaned out your closet so many times you hardly have anything to wear.  Yes, the shoes too! After that the sh*t hits the fan and we move to things that hurt, now this is my experience.  A bit of disclaimer there. It hurts, loved ones leave, people move away and jobs, projects come to an end.  It is called the cycle of conclusion, which is a good thing.  We really need to detox from so much stuff and people we have in our lives. It is said this is a year of much introspective and healing.  But it doesn't mean that its not changeling and freaking painful!  In 2013, my son left to live with his dad, my business took a dive, I lost my direction, my faith, my sense of solidity, my optimism and my tether. I also sold my house, sold the next house, lost most of my clients and one of my bank accounts.  2014 did not start out that great either, I got divorced.  The last one was a conscious decision based on all of the other things I had lost along the way. By the time April rolls around  I was so raw and numb I couldn't even express how I felt to my dumbfounded ex-husband.  The divorce came through so fast that it gave everyone whiplash! I was at a loss for words for everything; work, parenthood, life in general.  I couldn't form sentences or make a decision.  I was so raw that I could not see the light at the end of the tunnel.  My daughter that always had me as a fruity hippy actually told me that I was now bitter! wow! bitter?   I anxiously awaited for the sweet relief of September!  Yes, once September 23 rolled in I would wake up that day with a fresh new outlook on life! Filled with optimism and joy!! wooohooo! Yeah....... That didn't happen.  After trying to find an apartment for 6 months on a cycle 9, I swore that after the 23rd the damn thing would just fall on my lap.  Yeah..... That didn't happen either.  What? These stupid yogis, numerologist and seers had it all wrong!!!!! Aahh. 

Ok., so now I am in a cycle 1. My teacher always said, "when you come out of a 9 cycle you will feel disoriented and completely raw, don't make any major decisions" Boy that was an understatement.  So, now what? when will the tide change. Well, now stay tune... Come with me on this crazy ride and I really would love to hear from any one going through anything similar.!

Sat Nam